A Personal Story

Driven by a strong passion of creating happy moments for people, I left the the regular German career path after a short intermezzo in the corporate world. Living a free and self-determined life has been my compass along the path. Even though many times the pressure of being self-employed didn’t always feel so free.

After starting an event and marketing business in Frankfurt, my desire of travelling and adventure brought me to Vancouver, Canada. In 2005 I founded my first own company in Vancouver, BC – called CanThrill events + marketing. What followed were 15 years of countless partys, special international events, opening nightclubs and bringing to life my first pop-up restaurant in 2016. I was living my passion of bringing people together to the fullest. A life fully invested in the outside world and in maximum pleasure & fun.

Until came that day in 2019, the day that shook my world. Nothing really major happened, for many it would have been no big deal. For me – it meant the world. It felt as my interior system was completely out of balance. Weeks of strong feelings of fear escalating to panic attacks, sleepless nights, no appetite and a previously unknown difficulty to have coherent thoughts.

Until today I’m extremely grateful to the close friends that were there for me to support me in this challenging time (I learned about the importance of external resources). I came to realization that I previously never really paid attention to my internal world (internal resources), my feelings, my thoughts and how they affected my physical and overall wellbeing.

At this time I had no tools available to do anything about this ongoing storm inside of me – it hit me completely unprepared. If this rather minor event was able to create so much havoc – I started to imagine what life threatening events like violence, abuse, neglect, accidents and death of loved ones might do to others. I realized that this type of internal unbalance can hit anyone, no matter of status, job, wealth, social network or family situation. 

After finding back into my balance over time, this intense personal experience piqued my curiosity. I wanted to learn more about my internal landscape, my emotions, my thoughts, my physical body and my behavioral patterns – I became a passionate student again. In my early 40’s.

I joined the university of Bamberg / Germany to start a masters program. I visited many seminars about meditation, yoga and breathwork. I completed programs about the connection between mind, body and emotions. I learned lots about trauma during a one-year program as a non-medical practitioner for psychotherapy.

But the most important – for the first time in my life, I started consciously listening to me and what was going on inside of me. Not only allowing the feelings of pleasure and excitement, but also the recognizing the strong feelings of fear, shame and a strong sense of not being enough. What were they here for to tell me, why was I avoiding or suppressing them my entire life, what can I learn from them and how to transform or release them?

I had to ask myself many uncomfortable questions. What has been driving me for all those years? Why was I able to manage so many projects at the same time? Why did I end up having a full burn out in 2010, which took me over 1 year to recover from? Why was I so depended on outside approval, what does it have to do with my childhood and my parents?

During this time of countless questions, I wished I would have had some roadmap to guide me. Or an experienced person to to take me by the hand and show me the path forward.

An instruction manual to explain me the different steps to take, where to start. I really didn’t know where to begin, so I just did a lot. Meditation, yoga, breathwork, self-regulation, music, university teachings, trainings, seminars, books, podcasts, psychotherapy, plant medicine and augmented states of consciousness. So much to learn and even more important –  so much to experience!

You can only know what is good for you, what actually has an impact –  by trying it out and experiencing it. And a whole new world opened up to me, especially when I started to carefully and consciously listening to others. Something else I wasn’t very good at, until I started to learn how to be more aware in the presence of other people.

By listening carefully to others, a big realization manifested itself: We all have some healing work to do.

That’s why I started this project, because it all begins with connecting. Whatever wounded parts we carry within us, they were all created through the connection or interaction with others. And the way we heal them, happens through connection as well.

My intention is to create this network of people to support each other in a trusted, safe and respectful space – so that they can allow themselves to open up. Inviting people to go on this bold and exciting adventure to explore their inner landscape in a secure environment. I would like to offer the inspirations and guide posts that I wasn’t able to find easily during the time I needed them the most. I’m here to offer support to anyone interested in recalibrating their inner compass. To access a natural flow of life that feels very authentic and is aligned with who we really are at our true core. 

I want to make sure that everyone knows that there is path out of difficult times. I like to encourage everyone interested to take the responsibility to live the authentic, healthy and joyful life that we wish for ourselves and for others.

And most important – I WANT IT TO BE JOYFUL! It is real work but every good adventure is like that. The moment you leave your comfort zone, you welcome change into your life and it is so rewarding. Sharing this joy with others is my sincere motivation. I’m looking forward to continue to listen carefully, learn with an open heart and continue the path of healing in close connection with others.

WELCOME TO HEALING WITH JOY!

Why am I sharing such personal details? Recognizing and embracing your vulnerabilities is a super power. It frees you from keeping engaging in the same coping mechanism and other distracting behavior. It helps you to get closer to your true self – to live the life you wish for yourself. And I hope it will motivate others to join the path of profound healing to find lasting peace within. 

Let’s get started – you’re very welcome to join me on the path. Sebastien